Sunday, February 28, 2010

Some day

Some day.......

Some day you will realize that just because you and she disagree about one of your children.......it does not mean that she is ALWAYS being in defense of them.....

Some day you will see how much it chips away at her sense of self.....every time you walk passed her and grab her roll of fat......

Some day you might realize you need to tell her she is beautiful......even though she just discovered 3 more lines on under her eyes.....

Some days......it's not ALL ABOUT YOU.....Sometimes, it's all about her.....and when you don't realize that, it seriously pisses her off!

Some day you might actually thank her for all that she does, not because she wants the recognition, but.....sometimes it's just nice to be noticed.

Some day, you will learn that she came up with a way to pay for $1500 bill to Uncle Sam.  What you will probably notice first, was that she said it was $1,000 that was owed, because somehow $1500 would have sent you over the edge.  While you are still on the topside of the edge, realize that $1500 SENT HER over the edge and she survived.

Some day you might see that what you said tonight about why you separated 3 years ago, completely pulled the rug out from under her.  She will never feel "safe" in her marriage.  She marks the days, the months, the years - and one sentence "Just like you did when we separated......" completely smacks her in her wrinkled up face!

Some day.....most importantly, you will see that what you said about your son's coach tonight will have a lasting effect on him.  You will see that even though she agrees WITH you, but not about the way you deliver it.....you two will disagree.  She, becoming the bitch of three years ago........you asleep on the couch....and she wondering, "Seriously?"

And even when..... if you don't "realize" any of this, know that tomorrow she still has to get up, pull on a pair of pants, suck it in, all the while that you walk by with your gut hanging out - and not giving it a second thought - she'll be planning tonight's dinner, figuring out when she will stop at the store - after work, or on her lunch hour - make you lunch, bring you your coffee, make sure the Beav has his lunch money, worry about how you guys are going to pay for college after this semester, wonder if she can do what they expect of her at work and slide into work, late.as.usual...........hair all screwed up, makeup not working and wishing......just once...you would look at her and say, "It's going to be ok"

Some one pass me some damned wine before I spill all of the marbles........

10 comments:

Tracie said...

I wonder how long it will take him to realize after i'm gone.

Good post - This so fits for me too!

PS I think you're amazing!!

Nadine Hightower said...

Blogs are such a good way to vent. I feel like I'm peeking in your window and seeing something I shouldn't.


Be happy. Life's too short to be anything but happy.

Hugs.

Becca said...

I could have written this post 11 years ago.

Life is too short to live with the regrets and the what ifs and to be so heartbreakingly unhappy.

Go with your gut. You deserve to be happy.

Jenn said...

:( Haven't heard from you in so long, and now this...I'm so sorry. You are an amazing person, and deserve the best.

giggles said...

big hugs.....

Jeankfl said...

I hope this is temporary, but if not, you know we've got your back.. Maybe you should leave this out where he could read it..
hugs,
Jean

bigdogmompam said...

big hugs and puppy kisses for you. we're here if you need us.

Jane! said...

Boys are stupid.

You look pretty today and your outfit is fabulous.

:o)

Shana said...

Boys do suck

Kat said...

It may have taken me awhile - but boys are stupid and the suck too. You are a wonderful, beaugtiful woman and I think you look more smashing than you did last month when Jane commented!!!